Life on mars is my term to say live in somewhere i dont know. Its not that i dont know where i am now, it just i dont know what to do now. I am a lousy mother, a bad parent you might say i wont be offended because it’s kinda true. I am not earning anything, i just lean to my husband for life.
I feel like a failure sometimes.
But i like to think i still have hope. Dont lose hope., thats all the people said right?
I want to believe that even on my age, i can still fight for my future. Is it okay?never late to learn and fight right? I have many wishes. I want to be a great mother, i want to be a good homecook, have a garden, great bussiness, great using sew machine, good in crocheting, at least able to speak on 5 languages, work in media or film, going to usa, going to mecca, understand microsoft project, have my own home and apartment, have spare car, can drive motorcycle, play the piano and guitar, study and work overseas, be happy. Could i accomplish all of them? So many of them. I can do everything right? Or am i just naive?