i want too many, aren’t i?


i think i am in my second teenager (But old) phase in life. I want so many things, while 10 years ago i dont even know what i want. I want to learn and able to speak many languages, life healthy by doing sports, travel the world, earn money so i can secure my older self life my kid education, learn islam better, have more friends that really friend, less on my mind and the list still go on. I even have not add sewing and gardening to the list.

where should i start

should i chase all of them

or should i just choose the best three

i dont know what to do


having many dreams always better than not having one right?

so i still have the urge to live this life

and grateful


this new hobby called: running


it’s been a while. I even forget the password to this site so i just reset it

Now i just want to share my new activity. Yup rite, running. I happened to join a chatroom because i need to order something and then “trapped happily” inside because i got the new meaning of running and healthy lifestyle. Well my lifestyle is so much far from health, but in my defense i’d like to say i made a progress.

i used to hate running (and all kind of sports) to the bone, but when i read what people shared, i try to understand it, and try to do it. My conclusion is running is not that bad, and sometimes when i am very lucky i feel very happy while running.

i think i igh be to narrow minded before, so i dont accept the thing i dont like easily. At first it was for the medal, its so satisfying to get the medal.

But then, it become what i need. Sports is good when you know the boundaries. Sometimes i got too addicted and buy all the sport things i dont even needed. Sometimes i feel very little at heart when i feel like i am being ignored.

one thing i must remember is, nothing is 100 percents going as planned.

i must accept what i get, because that is the result of my effort.Not everybody think like the way i do, not everybody is making amends like you do now, and however good it is to you, you might be wrong. just pray, do, and smile.

i like to quote amber f(x)

it is okay to have different opinion, but hurt people feeling is never okay.

the point is pointless, but the bottomline is i like running now.. hope running give me health and happiness not disease and broke.


Productive day


Today i decide just to stay at home with my lovely son. And i couldnt believe how productive i am today

First thing in the morning, i inflate rubber pool for me and my son

This is a gift from my lovely husband. Picture above show the pool that hasnt perfectly inflate. My son and i play there about an hour. Its so fun.

While playing at the pool, i manage to made choco cupcakes. Not good but not bad i think, my son seemed to enjoy it

And its so many i can make a cake. I add chocolate and sprinkle above the cake

After swim and cook, i saw my sewing machine. I checked pinterest to find something easy (easy to people is hard to me, my bar is very low hehe)

So i made a tote bag, actually i made 2 reversible totebags. I learn something new today, how to turn inside out the strap and how to sew the strap correctly. Check out my totebags. First totebag i use jeans and cotton, and the second i use cotton completely.

I feel very productive today. All my result is faaaaar from perfect but i still satisfied. 


20 september 2017

Diy: sling bag


Hai my new lesson is making super simple sling bag. I made it from canvas fabric just like in the photo

The inner is usual cotton fabric. I used a 20 cm zipper, and webbing as the sling. 

First i sew the zipper into the fabric from the inside. I sew both side of the zipper of course. Turn it inside outside and put the webbing as the sling. I still learn to sew and write (obviously). But i quite satisfied with this project. 


19 september 2017

Diy: toddler pants


So i learn to sew a lot.. and most of the time i failed. But i get up again and again, sometimes i get up the next day, sometimes many months after hohoho

I made a toddler pants for my son

Its made of soft jeans (because my sewing machine is only portable one not the heavy duty)

I got the pattern from my mother, she is so talented. I love her but i dont have the courage to say it, sorry little segway.

I made those pants only from half meter of fabric, thread (i should have use the dark one though), and elastic rubber

The tools i need were sewing machine, the pattern, scissors, and patient! Very important for a sloppy like me.

I just put the pattern on the fabric cut it out, and sew the part. Last thing is to put the elastic rubber on it waist. And done. 

I realize the sewing are messy, the thread is crooked, i was impatient etc etc

But in my defense my goal now is just to keep doing something at least once a week and write it as a memory later. A memory to remind me someday, that i try to learn something. Sometimes i feel like a failure who cannot do anything, even i cant peel a mango the right way. But this is my way to accept myself that i try to learn.

17 september 2017

Woman bag by Lucky


Today i learn to make a woman bag. Its very simple bag, but since i was impatient and sloppy its very challenging for me. 

Actually i just combine the inner and outer of the bag, fold the top of the bag, and sew the strap. The hardest part is to sew the strap, because it was too thick and my sewing machine cant handle it. So i finished it by hand sew. 

Even its very far from good or tidy, i am pretty happy because i did it. You know, sometimes we get the satisfaction after finish something, even the result is not as we expected. I just hope i dont stop to learn, write, love, and pray

14 september 2017

Lucky does cook: failed arem arem


Today i learned how to make arem arem. And like you can see in the title, i failed.

Arem arem is mix of a very smooth rice and vegetables in a leaf. 

Its very delicious, so i attempted to make it. 

The ingredients are: rice, coconut milk, carrot, onion and garlic as the filling

Its actually very simple to make it: i just need to boiled the rice and coconut milk until it become rice. Than fry the onion, garlic, and carrot. Then combine those two on banana leaves. And steam about 15 minutes. And its done. 

I think my mistake is i didnt steam it in a right time, so the rice still looks like rice not like “lontong” (pardon, i dont know what lontong in english). 

I failed but thats okay, i can evaluate my mistake because i have try. 

Arem arem

14 september 2017

Life on mars

Life on mars is my term to say live in somewhere i dont know. Its not that i dont know where i am now, it just i dont know what to do now. I am a lousy mother, a bad parent you might say i wont be offended because it’s kinda true. I am not earning anything, i just lean to my husband for life. 

I feel like a failure sometimes.

But i like to think i still have hope. Dont lose hope., thats all the people said right?

I want to believe that even on my age, i can still fight for my future. Is it okay?never late to learn and fight right? I have many wishes. I want to be a great mother, i want to be a good homecook, have a garden, great bussiness, great using sew machine, good in crocheting, at least able to speak on 5 languages, work in media or film, going to usa, going to mecca, understand microsoft project, have my own home and apartment, have spare car, can drive motorcycle, play the piano and guitar, study and work overseas, be happy. Could i accomplish all of them? So many of them. I can do everything right? Or am i just naive?

Blog at WordPress.com.

Up ↑

Run With It

So that a herald may run with it

Sharing SHINee

Onew // Jonghyun // Key // Minho // Taemin


Beyond Extraordinary

Chasing Jameson

Motherhood + Lifestyle